Summer 10'

Summer 2010 is going to be amazing!

Dramaaa.

I absolutely hate DRAMA. My school is filled with it, you hear whispers, you see pointing, it's ridiculous. Some girls are absorbed into it and it causes fights and bull shit and I'm done with it. Get over yourself and say something nice about another person instead of starting rumors and putting them down. It's like a damn safari at High School and these bitches are the lions attacking us gazelles trying to chill and eat some grass!

Sighhhh.

well, today has been a hand full... I woke up to the light shining through my window upon my face and thought, why does the sun have to come up so early on a Saturday morning? I texted my amazing boyfriend who was unfortunately asleep until one o'clock; I could swear he is a cat. I finally got out of bed about an hour later from watching Mean Girls and Charley's Angels. I made myself some ramen when my mother came in through the front door and brought me a large quench filled sweet tea. I put my hair up into a bun, braided my bangs, put my golf attire on, and headed off to my golf lesson deep into town. I learned and absorbed so much information that I couldn't believe how intricate golf can be. I told my mom that me and Hayden were going to be together forever and wait till we get married, which was what we decided the night before while watching Spongebob Square pants on the couch. I said in total truth and honesty. I love Hayden although we have only been together for 2 months, our second month anniversary was the seventeenth of May, but we can't keep away from each other for more then three days and have the best times when together. After taking a calming, hot shower I had a text from Hayden saying he wanted to go to the lake, he also called, so I called him back and said it was fine, but I just wanted to know who was going... When he said her name I almost exploded into oblivion. Riley Fritze... She caused me many tears, heartbreak, and anger deep in my heart. Hayden knew I hate her but thought of only himself in this situation and decided to hang out with her. I became very angry and felt like steam was going to disperse out of my ears. He doesn't want me to hang out with my ex, you could say, but he is able to hang out with his ex and the one that took me away from my first love. (not naming any names). As i arrived at my end of the year volleyball party, I became slightly happier and as the night goes on I still am. I have cooled down from our horrible confrontation and finally decided to text him back. When I read of the many texts I received one said... "We need to talk in person." So i immediately thought the worse, he's going to break up with mel. So I called him and he told me he couldn't talk he was eating. Then after our short conversation he texted me back "It's very possible." My heart sank and I am doing everything to keep this relationship affloat. I will be heartbroken if he leaves me and I know he will to because he told me if I broke up with him he wouldn't know what to do... Sighhhh.

lost in the past few weeks

The last few weeks have been a blur, Loss of four friends Volleyball School work My wonderful boyfriend. Where does the time go?!

Polyvore Sets I made.

PLEASE PRAY.

Lord, please pray for Robert Spikes. He is fighting for his life and he is a strong guy who I know can pull through this. You are my rock Lord, and I need you to support all my friends and my boyfriend, Hayden, who has been best friends with him since second grade. Help his family stay strong through this horrible car crash. I love Robert and I need him here on Earth GOD, he hasn't finished what he was put on the Earth to do. Last night he texted me i will always be here for you and tonight I need to be here for him. GOD we all want these boys to be safe and live. Please help Marcus and Micah's family get through their fatalities and bless them with your love and protection. You gave them life and took their lives for a reason so please show the ones who love these boys the most what your reasoning was. You are my rock, my soul, my shoulder to cry on, my life, my love and myhappiness. PLEASE PRAY.

so, there's this friend...

and her name is emily. and i loooooove her. :) yeah, she's pretty much my best friend! & we are off to dallas right now, for a volleyball tournament, that i hope we do wonderfully fantastic in! (and guess what. she's writing this right now!!) :)<3

Twenty Second.

My day, Wake up. Watch pointless television. Wait for Mom to bring my medicine for my lip. Wait some more. Eat lunch, which surprisingly I don't remember what I ate. Wait for my boyfriend to text. FAIL. Play some Words with Friends on my Itouch. Edit photos and work on my Blog. Watch some more TV. Eat Chick Fil A for dinner, exceptionally yummy! My best friend, Brandon, comes to visit for a few minutes. More TV. Gummy Worms. What a day....

Twenty First.

FRIENDS

Twentieth.

My parents are driving me up the wall. Since they divorced one another I have been in living Hell. Many people do not know my story, about me, or what goes on in my household. I am miserable every night when my father lectures, screams, and pulls on my arms. When I am at my mother's she watches me like a hawk, she's crazy and so overprotective and I feel like I am suffocating in her grip on my freedom. Last night I had one of the worst days I have had in a long time, and through all of this misery, Hayden was there for me. He talked me through it, comforted me, and made me smile when I was in tears. I am so glad he is my boyfriend. At first I was apprehensive and felt I really didn't care about him, but I really do. I like him so much now and I can't wait to see him next! He makes me so happy :)

Ninteenth.

He's slipping away from me and I'm scared. I am tired of loosing men over my stubborness. I really care about him and I don't want him to give up on me; I'll change for him because I don't want him to leave me...

Eighteeth.

Sorry for not blogging lately. It is my spring break and I have been with my boyfriend all week! I am so glad he finally asked me. For some reason I feel like I don't like him when I am not with him. That's not right I know but I cannot help it, so I think I am all out of love from all the hurt other boys have caused me. My love tank is empty.

Seventeenth.

Kisses, Kisses, Kisses. He is so amazing, I love being with him, when i am without him I am thinking about him, when I'm texting him i can't get that smile off my face and when he isn't texting me i am waiting for a text from him.

Sixteenth.

To anyone out there, I haven't been adding new posts lately because my life is a mess, heart-breakers, gossip, and trouble.

Fifteenth.

I'm tired of people getting into my business, starting shit, and getting me all worked up and pissed off. Stay out of my business.

Fourteenth.

homework... tons of it.

Thirteenth.

Basketball game tonight! I hope he can come and watch with me... My best friends are with me and we are about to eat my mom's enchiladas!

Twelfth.

He hasn't texted me in three days, and I thought it was over... But during Math i got a a text that made my heart skip a beat. He still wanted to talk to me...

Eleveth.

Volleyball tournament today! We did wonderful and worked as a team, I am going to watch Fame, the movie, tonight with my teammate gabi!

Tenth.

I love being retarded with my friends...

Ninth.

Last night was crazy. BOYS. wow. No details of course, but it was a hell of a night! With confusing turns, surprises, and regret.

Eighth.

So, my style is casual, wearing jeans, comfortable shoes, v neck. You know, the easy going outfits you wear in high school. The boy i might be going for is skater, hey I like any guy that is hot, has a good personality, and i can feel myself around. I wonder if he is going to text me... tick tock. tick tock. Maybe I should text him? hmmm? Tick tock. Tick tock...

Seventh.

Well I can't wait to get my first car even though my birthday is eleven months away from turning sixteen. Driving gives you a feel of freedom and danger. I love being in a car with a guy driving down a dark road holding hands, having that movie moment, where he looks at you with the sweetest smile and your heart drops into your stomach. Singing along with the music, as he stares at me and chuckles to himself while i entertain him with that horrible voice of mine that he finds so cute. He tells me he loves me as I leave the car with hesitation and can't resist going back for one more kiss. I miss it, I miss a boy being there for me without wanting anything sexual... All he wants is me as myself. I guess Mr. Right hasn't come galloping around the corner on his white horse. High School boys are over-rated but still so addicting.

Sixth.

The most gorgeous boy in school. I have been obsessed with this amazing senior boy in my school, of course he has no idea i exist but every time i see him i melt onto the ground. My dream boy.

Fifth.

Youth Tonight. Being in High School God is always needed. He helps you through tough tests, drama, and sports. My friends have a great bond with each other and God.

Fourth.

Last post of the day...

Drugs, hmm, difficult subject you say?

Third.

She's Got Style, NeverShoutNever http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hkBMHECVkEA

Second.

Sometimes you feel alone in a sea of people Sometimes you feel alone inside Sometimes you feel alone in God's House Sometimes you feel alone in your lovers arms Sometimes you feel alone when your friends surround you with laughter Sometimes you feel alone with your head in your hands and your eyes filled with gentle tears But you're not alone.

First.

The bell rings the halls crowd As I walk I hear everyone talking so loud Carrying bags, pens, and books The bitchy girls give you rude looks Wearing jeans, t shirts, and toms Everyone is glad to escape the pestering of their moms Plugging in Ipods to ignore the nagging teachers Watching pep rally for football in the gym's bleachers Homecoming with your boyfriend and Prom with your High School Sweetheart Paper airplanes zooming across the classroom like a dart Finally ending your relationship with your boyfriend that stabs your heart like a knife High School flys by like a shooting star flying by the sky of life...